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Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Passed my FTT today.. didn't study much due to my sickening lab test which falls on today as well. lab test was pretty ez. hehe. everything went smoothly for me todae!!
went for my 1st e-trial an hr before my FTT and i failed both papers badly. N the worst ting is i tot i cud practise many many papers. so i rushed thru without reading thoroughly through my mistakes. in e end i completed both papers within 30 mins n learnt almost NTH. argh. so my confidence is running real low.
went to meet kk at the cafe n i was really demoralised. he was my adviser for e dae n kept persuading me to just give it a try later. i actually intended to head straight home without taking e test. the funny thing is he asked me to close my eyes n wish for a pass n he sae it works. oh gosh. n i really did that out of desperation HAHAHA.
so i gave it a try. n when i entered e room , i was hoping to get a seat whereby nobody sits bside me. so even if i fail, it wudnt be so embarrassing. in e end...... i was posted to a row wiv the most pple. N i saw the cute guy who went for the e-trial again. n i chose not to sit bside him just in case i fail i tink hes gona laugh his ass off.
In e end , i was actualli supposed to sit bside him. cos after many failed attempts of loging in , i realised i sat at the wrong seat. wahhh. den he tot im crazy or sth cos he gave e wth face. like a moment sit dere n suddenli sit beside him. i was really tempted to ask . can u please help me wiv my FTT. im gona fail it. wanted to ask another person sitting bside me at e other seat but he just looked like hes gona bash ppl up anytime. but of cos i wudnt ever try to say that.
what if they baotoh me? lol. so i jus pray that i wud pass. n tht cute fellow took just 10 minutes to finish the FTT. man. i told myself i can never finish the paper before other pple sitting beside me for fear i fail. N he passed. my god. tts so power. lol. n that fierce fellow sitting 1 seat awae from me banged e table b4 he left. wow i was too engrossed in tinking so i got a shock. Again , i peeped at his screen n he failed. no wonder hes so pissed off lol. n finally its my turn to end test. n WOW..... wad a surprise for me. =D
got a 5 pgs report to type out by today. n QUIZZZZZZ to study for. :(((((((((((((((
Anyway
lingy , so glad tt u have moved on ~ proud of u too for being able to take tis step.
I know it's hard on u. Cos ive gone through tis stage too. determined to wait.. having the naive tinking that 1 day
he will be back. but coming to realise that he has alr treated me as a normal fren n will always do. Will such a day come by? definitely not. If hes sick of me now , he can be sick of me again n again in future even IF hes back. its just a vicious cycle.
yea so everything is back to normal now n will always be like this!!I'm back to secondary sch till poly year 1 days. return home after sch n rot at home like a couch potato.
YAY~ haha. think i wud have to stay at home for valentine's day alr.
K.. im going off to study.
can't wait for sun-tanning wiv clsmates after exams! i look like some white mouse now!!!
♥ wake me up
3:40 AM
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